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Notes on a project
Because I was feeling that relief which comes with reaching a milestone I had decided to not immediately start writing again. Certainly, at some time I wanted to describe the character of Harold Williams a bit more. One of the fascinating things about this memoir writing business is the insights the writer gets. Of course, what advantage is there to me to realise that this boy was ADD? Perhaps instead I should be going down those pathways which may lead me to insights about my own behaviour, testing the boundaries of my own internal censor. So I decided not to start describing Harold Williams, even though as I told myself that devoting an hour to a brief character sketch would be enough, I was aware that I expected Tom Maher would be satisfied with the same brief treatment. And now he is still wanting more of my time. Therefore before dealing with Harold I decided to pick up "The Party" again and try to salvage something from it. I guess I have been putting it off because there is a structural problem there -- because what I am trying to do will be harder to pull off -- because you may not like it -- because deep down I know its a wank -- because etc etc.
In any case this afternoon while waiting at a café for my daughter, I decided to write down a few notes on Harold Williams while the points I have been considering were fresh in my mind. The words flowed like a steady stream of water only being interrupted by the arrival of .... Having fallen off the wagon with one drink I am now looking forward to another and another.
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